Prelude

Hi

That's how I always start my blogs. 'Hi'. I don't care if you get annoyed about how I always started this way. It's my style.

Anyway, that was not the first impression I wanted you to have of me. You probably all hate me for that.

So I'm Zan. I'm an artist, a writer, a poet, and a friend. My favorite color is blue with some black cause black is just kool. My favorite animals are wolves and ducks. My birth date is April 26th, 1993. Which means I'm 14, but I'll be 15 pretty damn soon. DON'T ASSUME THAT I'M AN IMMATURE TEENAGER BECAUSE OF MY AGE!! It's actually been SCIENTIFICALY PROVEN that I'm actually too mature for my age. I've got the mind and logic of a 19 year-old, but all of the emotions and sensitivity of a teenager. Sounds fun, right?

My Mind:
I tell you about my mind. It's a confusing place. I've got schitzophrenia (but don't tell), and a bunch of dead people living in my head. :D There are eight dead people: Craig, Jan, Shadow (Kayla), Trevor, Sunny, Zuun, Serene, Otui. My second personality's name is Naz (original, huh?), and the only reason she's here is to get revenge for me. ^__^ I don't want her to because revenge for her means merciless killing. :DDD I have another personality who's name is Exx, but she never comes out because she doesn't believe in forceful take over. I bet this is all really confusing for you to follow this because I can barely follow this myself. I just want you to know that I'm not crazy, but lost in this sick reality we call the present. I only want to belong.

My Mind For The LOST:
The reason I wanted to start this blog was because... I don't know, actually. o__O My friend Peyton was talking about how she went to this site and got a blog, so I wanted to get one too, I guess? Plus, I've been really depressed lately, and have no one to talk to except for my separate personalities, which I hate. ><

My Mind For The LONELY:
I was hoping that people could read this, and not make fun of me. Also I was hoping they'l be able to relate to me somehow. I wanna make friends here.... I need more friends these days. ~I Only Want To Belong~

I love you!
In Regards to Myself....

***Zan