Hi
I realized how much i love Nine Inch Nails. o___O I know I'm a little late accounting on how all of their hit stuf was hott like, two years ago. Like I care though. haha
My fashion sense was always questionable. XDDD
My old best friend just apologized to me.... He broke up with his overly-controlling girlfriend. o__O I'll re-live this moment over and over. XDD
XDDD
NO ONE READS MY FUCKING BLOG.
In Regards To Myself....
***Zan
Monday, April 21, 2008
Friday, April 18, 2008
ZOMFG... ARMOR FOR SLEEP!!! Part 2
Hi
MY. FIRST. CONCERT. WAS. AWESOME.
XD
So, we drove over to the House Of Blues in Orlando with everyone in the back of my dad's "Clown Car" (Gawd, that was such a tight squeeze... ><>
Anyways, when we got there, we were walking toward the House Of Blues and we were doing the macarena all the way there for some reason. o___O no one knows why..... XDD [I used my parents camera to take videos, so I'll be putting them together this weekend, and it will be edited and on youtube. :DD I'll put the link up here, even though no one EVER reads my blog. So whatever.]
We walked in there all kool-like, and the first thing Sydney said was, "BATHROOM." She just started walking, and we didn't know where the fuck she was going. I don't think she did, either. haha. She ended up having to ask for directions, and it turns out the bathrooms were right next to the entrance which was on the opposite side of the building. haha. The Irony!!
After that shananagan, we sat at a table (Not even bothering to take a spot on the actual floor), and we scouted for hott guys because that's usually what we do first anyway. XD We saw a few, but one really caught our eye. He was really tall, and had sexy hair. We were all like, *__*. We then took our spot on the floor, and he kept moving closer to our party, but yeah... o___O He stood right next to me within five minutes. His not-as-good-looking friend was scamming on a bunch of chicks, and actually winning which I thought was kinda weird because, ew.
The first band, Lydia, went up, and they were pretty good. I liked their strange dance moves... o___O haha.... When that ended and there was a quick break, Peyton was complaining about how cold her hands were, so Sydney rubbed her hands for her, but after a bit, it was really awkward, so they stopped. She was still cold. Then Tree-Boy's (That's what we called hott, sexy guy XD) friend comes up behind her, and turned her around and started rubbing her hands for her. She was like o___O;;. That's when I really got to talk to Tree-Boy, who's name is actually Evan. [His friend was named Diego Sanchez, btw] :DD We were having good conversation, and then the next band came up.
It was Metro Station. (I found out that night that the lead singer is Miley Cyrus's brother. o___O I thought that was funny. :]) The base guitarist was really hott, but you could tell that he was so full of himself. Hahaha.
After that, there was another break in which I got Evan's screename on AIM. I'm devious. Anyway, the next band that went up was Set Your Goals. They were really kool, and Punk Rock, and Hardcore. People were moshing, and I was the one that got beat up the most in my group of friends. I almost switched personalities, but I didn't let it happen. I got punched in the face twice, elbowed in the back of the head, knocked over, had boobs up against me (EW), and got stomped on. I was pretty much over it, but then this girl with fucking sharp nails start climbing and crawling over the crowd. That bitch kicked me in the side of the head! Then, she knocked over this one guys girlfriend who was younger, and she cried! I was like, "Oh, no you DIDN'T!" So, I climbed up the bitch with the nails, and punched her right in the face! XDDD Bad. Ass. She tried to punch me back, but Sydney got to her first. haha.
The best this about that mosh was the fact that a lot of people got pushed forward closer to the stage, so I was really close to the front. Then, people started to leave, so I WAS RIGHT UP IN THE FRONT WHEN ARMOR FOR SLEEP CAME UP NEXT!!!! I FLIPPED out when they came on! They were SO amazing!! I screamed, "I LOVE YOU!!" And Ben Jorgenson was like, "Thank you." :DDD The first song they played was 'Smile for The Camera' from their newest CD. After that, they realized that their amp was broken. Ben Jorgenson said, "How the fuck are you, tonight!!... We have a great show for you tonight!... *looks over to PJ with the amp* If our shit works. o__O;;" That was funny.
Except the amp remained broken, so Ben had to give up his guitar to PJ, so he could play. They played 'The Truth About Heaven' next, then 'Hold The Door', and 'Chemicals'. The amp was still broken, and they were having trouble playing, so Ben asked, "Does anyone have an amp we could borrow, like, in their car or something? If you do, tell me, and I'll give you a pass to get back in here so you can go get it." Then this girl yells back, "Oh, I do! I do!!" So he threw her the pass, and he said, "My keys are on there, so I'm gonna need that back after the show..." She didn't even move!! She didn't have an amp! She just wanted to steal from the band! That was a really bitchy thing to do.... I mean, I'M a HUGE fan, but i would NEVER do something like that! Seriously!!
When no one came back with an amp, they were in real trouble. They couldn't continue. Ben asked the crowd, "Is everyone REALLY excited to see Saves The Day?", and these two ggirls in the back were like, "SAVES THE DAY!! OMG!! SAVES THE DAY!!" So Ben replied, "Well, I guess we'll just leave then because everyone wants to see Saves The Day more, anyway, so after this last song, we'll go." I. Fucking. Cried. I screamed "No! I came here to see you!!", but it didn't work... They played 'Car Underwater', and then they left... It was really sad, but I'm just glad I got to see them, and be near them...
Craig was there with me the whole time... I felt like he was right behind me... We were there together, I just KNOW it...
I bought a SHITLOAD of Armor For Sleep merchandise. haha. [A pillow-case, a T-Shirt, 4 pins, and a signed poster] It was an AMAZING experience. A lovely first concert... I just wish it could've gone on longer... /;_;\
The headliner, Saves The Day, came on afterwards. When their first song ended, we left.
It's funny, I'll be back at the House Of Blues next Thursday to see Panic! At The Disco. Too bad my gay friend from Pennsylvania can't come.... /.__.\
Remember, I'll post videos of my experiences later on.
In Regards To Myself....
***Zan
MY. FIRST. CONCERT. WAS. AWESOME.
XD
So, we drove over to the House Of Blues in Orlando with everyone in the back of my dad's "Clown Car" (Gawd, that was such a tight squeeze... ><>
Anyways, when we got there, we were walking toward the House Of Blues and we were doing the macarena all the way there for some reason. o___O no one knows why..... XDD [I used my parents camera to take videos, so I'll be putting them together this weekend, and it will be edited and on youtube. :DD I'll put the link up here, even though no one EVER reads my blog. So whatever.]
We walked in there all kool-like, and the first thing Sydney said was, "BATHROOM." She just started walking, and we didn't know where the fuck she was going. I don't think she did, either. haha. She ended up having to ask for directions, and it turns out the bathrooms were right next to the entrance which was on the opposite side of the building. haha. The Irony!!
After that shananagan, we sat at a table (Not even bothering to take a spot on the actual floor), and we scouted for hott guys because that's usually what we do first anyway. XD We saw a few, but one really caught our eye. He was really tall, and had sexy hair. We were all like, *__*. We then took our spot on the floor, and he kept moving closer to our party, but yeah... o___O He stood right next to me within five minutes. His not-as-good-looking friend was scamming on a bunch of chicks, and actually winning which I thought was kinda weird because, ew.
The first band, Lydia, went up, and they were pretty good. I liked their strange dance moves... o___O haha.... When that ended and there was a quick break, Peyton was complaining about how cold her hands were, so Sydney rubbed her hands for her, but after a bit, it was really awkward, so they stopped. She was still cold. Then Tree-Boy's (That's what we called hott, sexy guy XD) friend comes up behind her, and turned her around and started rubbing her hands for her. She was like o___O;;. That's when I really got to talk to Tree-Boy, who's name is actually Evan. [His friend was named Diego Sanchez, btw] :DD We were having good conversation, and then the next band came up.
It was Metro Station. (I found out that night that the lead singer is Miley Cyrus's brother. o___O I thought that was funny. :]) The base guitarist was really hott, but you could tell that he was so full of himself. Hahaha.
After that, there was another break in which I got Evan's screename on AIM. I'm devious. Anyway, the next band that went up was Set Your Goals. They were really kool, and Punk Rock, and Hardcore. People were moshing, and I was the one that got beat up the most in my group of friends. I almost switched personalities, but I didn't let it happen. I got punched in the face twice, elbowed in the back of the head, knocked over, had boobs up against me (EW), and got stomped on. I was pretty much over it, but then this girl with fucking sharp nails start climbing and crawling over the crowd. That bitch kicked me in the side of the head! Then, she knocked over this one guys girlfriend who was younger, and she cried! I was like, "Oh, no you DIDN'T!" So, I climbed up the bitch with the nails, and punched her right in the face! XDDD Bad. Ass. She tried to punch me back, but Sydney got to her first. haha.
The best this about that mosh was the fact that a lot of people got pushed forward closer to the stage, so I was really close to the front. Then, people started to leave, so I WAS RIGHT UP IN THE FRONT WHEN ARMOR FOR SLEEP CAME UP NEXT!!!! I FLIPPED out when they came on! They were SO amazing!! I screamed, "I LOVE YOU!!" And Ben Jorgenson was like, "Thank you." :DDD The first song they played was 'Smile for The Camera' from their newest CD. After that, they realized that their amp was broken. Ben Jorgenson said, "How the fuck are you, tonight!!... We have a great show for you tonight!... *looks over to PJ with the amp* If our shit works. o__O;;" That was funny.
Except the amp remained broken, so Ben had to give up his guitar to PJ, so he could play. They played 'The Truth About Heaven' next, then 'Hold The Door', and 'Chemicals'. The amp was still broken, and they were having trouble playing, so Ben asked, "Does anyone have an amp we could borrow, like, in their car or something? If you do, tell me, and I'll give you a pass to get back in here so you can go get it." Then this girl yells back, "Oh, I do! I do!!" So he threw her the pass, and he said, "My keys are on there, so I'm gonna need that back after the show..." She didn't even move!! She didn't have an amp! She just wanted to steal from the band! That was a really bitchy thing to do.... I mean, I'M a HUGE fan, but i would NEVER do something like that! Seriously!!
When no one came back with an amp, they were in real trouble. They couldn't continue. Ben asked the crowd, "Is everyone REALLY excited to see Saves The Day?", and these two ggirls in the back were like, "SAVES THE DAY!! OMG!! SAVES THE DAY!!" So Ben replied, "Well, I guess we'll just leave then because everyone wants to see Saves The Day more, anyway, so after this last song, we'll go." I. Fucking. Cried. I screamed "No! I came here to see you!!", but it didn't work... They played 'Car Underwater', and then they left... It was really sad, but I'm just glad I got to see them, and be near them...
Craig was there with me the whole time... I felt like he was right behind me... We were there together, I just KNOW it...
I bought a SHITLOAD of Armor For Sleep merchandise. haha. [A pillow-case, a T-Shirt, 4 pins, and a signed poster] It was an AMAZING experience. A lovely first concert... I just wish it could've gone on longer... /;_;\
The headliner, Saves The Day, came on afterwards. When their first song ended, we left.
It's funny, I'll be back at the House Of Blues next Thursday to see Panic! At The Disco. Too bad my gay friend from Pennsylvania can't come.... /.__.\
Remember, I'll post videos of my experiences later on.
In Regards To Myself....
***Zan
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
ZOMFG... ARMOR FOR SLEEP!!!
Hi
I'm going to a Panic! At The Disco concert next weeks on the 24th. I don't like then a WHOLE lot, but I'm only going because Ben is going. XD He's my gay friend who's just like my big brother. He kept the group together, and we were all really close (we still are sorta), but then he had to go and move to Pennsylvania. Which sucks... ><
This concert is gonna be amazing. XD I hope my parents let me bring their camera or else I might destroy the world. >__O
In Regards To Myself....
I'M GOING TO AN ARMOR FOR SLEEP CONCERT TOMORROW!! They're my FAVORITE band!! :DDD I'm SO excited! This will be my first concert! I can't believe my first concert is Armor for Sleep!! I never thought it would happen!!
For all of you who don't know who Armor For Sleep is, they are a band created in Teaneck, New Jersey in 2002. Their genre of music is emo/post-harcore. They have made three CDs so far. The lead singer/guitarist/songwriter is Ben Jorgenson, the bass player/songwriter is Anthony DiIonno, the other guitarist is P.J DeCicco, and the drumer is Nash Breen.
Their Three CDs (in chronological Order):
1.)A Dream To Make-Believe (2003)
2.)What To Do When You Are Dead (2005)
3.)Smile for Them (2007)
I'm ZanDarkandLonelyDoom
I'm going with Sydney, MaryLynn, and Peyton. Bryan was supposed to come in MaryLynn's place, but he couldn't, so I gave the ticket to MaryLynn, which I'm kinda glad I did. XDDD
I'm going to a Panic! At The Disco concert next weeks on the 24th. I don't like then a WHOLE lot, but I'm only going because Ben is going. XD He's my gay friend who's just like my big brother. He kept the group together, and we were all really close (we still are sorta), but then he had to go and move to Pennsylvania. Which sucks... ><
This concert is gonna be amazing. XD I hope my parents let me bring their camera or else I might destroy the world. >__O
In Regards To Myself....
***Zan
Monday, April 14, 2008
Confusion To No End...
Hi
So, yeah, I'm completely confused.
Never thought this would happen. o___O
Guys Who Have Asked Me Out So Far That I Maybe Might Like (GWHAMOSFTIMML):
So, yeah, I'm completely confused.
Never thought this would happen. o___O
Guys Who Have Asked Me Out So Far That I Maybe Might Like (GWHAMOSFTIMML):
- Bryan
- Ray
- David
- Other Brian
- Hott Coffee Guy Named Ben
- But NOT Dan... ><
It seems that everyone but the guy that I'm sure I like has asked me out. Only time will tell, I suppose.... o____0
It doesn't make me any less confused though.....
In Regards To Myself....
***Zan
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Locked Inside A Shard...
Hi
I know i haven't been on in three days. I bet that last post got you (The non-existant people who read this)really scared and worried.
No, I didn't kill myself.
...Yet...
SERIOUSLY. SO much stuff had happened in such a small time slot. (Yes, I'm talking about the three days I haven't been on here... ><)
Horror #1: I'm having another schitzo-wave. (That's what I call it.) It's a point in time that my schitzophrenia is heightened. I hear things more. I interact with the ghosts inside the deepest depths of my mind. I don't usually se them so often, but during a schitzo-wave, I do. I'm seeing ghosts everywhere. Something simple can break me down. Sometimes, I don't even know what I'm saying.... This hasn't happened since the end of last summer, so It's hard to remember how I coped.
Horror #2: When I was 11, I started having dreams about my family... My family being ripped apart... Well, guess what? The forces decided to kick me while I'm down... EVERYTHING I DREAMT ABOUT WAS TRUE. This isn't the first time this has happened, either. My dad is moving out... I know that doesn't sound bad because I hate my dad, but it's SO much more complicated than you can imagine. I'm gonna have to go over there to spend quality time with my dad or else he's gonna go crazy on my mom... I'm suffering with choices... It's making me confused.
Horror #3: Fuckin' Bryan asked me out, and I really don't like him, but I thought he was joking, and I said yes. ><>
Horror #4: All of my friends are insensitive bitches who treat me like shit when people of importance or authority aren't around... ><
Horror #5: High School Musical 3 is coming out soon. JESUS CHRIST! CAN DISNEY CHANNEL SINK ANY LOWER? IT THOUGH HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 WAS BAD, BUT THIS IS INSANE!!! WHY COULDN'T THEY HAVE JUST LEFT IT AS A ONE MOVIE DEAL? THEY'RE RUINING IT!! I'M REALLY FUCKING TIRED OF SEEING THE CHEAP, SHITTY MERCHANIDISE THEY SELL FOR A MEDIOCRE MOVIE!! JUST LOOK AT THE ACTORS! THEY'RE UNMOVTIVATED! YOU CAN TELL THAT THEY WANNA GO HOME, AND WATCH SOMETHING! I SWEAR! THIS IS JUST THE HARRY POTTER DEAL! STOP RUINING PEOPLES' LIVES, DISNEY!!!
Now that I've got THAT out of my system
THANK YOU, AND GOODNIGHT!!
In Regards To Myself....
***Zan
I know i haven't been on in three days. I bet that last post got you (The non-existant people who read this)really scared and worried.
No, I didn't kill myself.
...Yet...
SERIOUSLY. SO much stuff had happened in such a small time slot. (Yes, I'm talking about the three days I haven't been on here... ><)
Horror #1: I'm having another schitzo-wave. (That's what I call it.) It's a point in time that my schitzophrenia is heightened. I hear things more. I interact with the ghosts inside the deepest depths of my mind. I don't usually se them so often, but during a schitzo-wave, I do. I'm seeing ghosts everywhere. Something simple can break me down. Sometimes, I don't even know what I'm saying.... This hasn't happened since the end of last summer, so It's hard to remember how I coped.
Horror #2: When I was 11, I started having dreams about my family... My family being ripped apart... Well, guess what? The forces decided to kick me while I'm down... EVERYTHING I DREAMT ABOUT WAS TRUE. This isn't the first time this has happened, either. My dad is moving out... I know that doesn't sound bad because I hate my dad, but it's SO much more complicated than you can imagine. I'm gonna have to go over there to spend quality time with my dad or else he's gonna go crazy on my mom... I'm suffering with choices... It's making me confused.
Horror #3: Fuckin' Bryan asked me out, and I really don't like him, but I thought he was joking, and I said yes. ><>
Horror #4: All of my friends are insensitive bitches who treat me like shit when people of importance or authority aren't around... ><
Horror #5: High School Musical 3 is coming out soon. JESUS CHRIST! CAN DISNEY CHANNEL SINK ANY LOWER? IT THOUGH HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 WAS BAD, BUT THIS IS INSANE!!! WHY COULDN'T THEY HAVE JUST LEFT IT AS A ONE MOVIE DEAL? THEY'RE RUINING IT!! I'M REALLY FUCKING TIRED OF SEEING THE CHEAP, SHITTY MERCHANIDISE THEY SELL FOR A MEDIOCRE MOVIE!! JUST LOOK AT THE ACTORS! THEY'RE UNMOVTIVATED! YOU CAN TELL THAT THEY WANNA GO HOME, AND WATCH SOMETHING! I SWEAR! THIS IS JUST THE HARRY POTTER DEAL! STOP RUINING PEOPLES' LIVES, DISNEY!!!
Now that I've got THAT out of my system
THANK YOU, AND GOODNIGHT!!
In Regards To Myself....
***Zan
Sunday, April 6, 2008
I Am VERY Unhappy...
Hi
It's so weird... For some reason, tonight seems like a beautiful night for suicide...
I know I won't do it, though. It's just my desire to end the chaos inside my own head. There's SO much in there.... There's ghosts. There's Voices. There's people. There's a whole other Me. I feel like there's someone behind me right now, but when I look, they've already gone. I know she's up to her tricks again... I'll probably end up having an attack tonight because this is just like how I felt last saturday. They'll send me to therapy if they find out...
I don't WANNA go there!!!
It's BAD there!!
You know, I used to love the things that I heard in my head...
But now, I'm only plagued by whatever force that is causing these things....
I kinda wanna paint my walls with blood, but I can't. o___O
Aren't I SO special? :DDD
I KNOW you'll agree....
In Regards To Myself....
***Zan
It's so weird... For some reason, tonight seems like a beautiful night for suicide...
I know I won't do it, though. It's just my desire to end the chaos inside my own head. There's SO much in there.... There's ghosts. There's Voices. There's people. There's a whole other Me. I feel like there's someone behind me right now, but when I look, they've already gone. I know she's up to her tricks again... I'll probably end up having an attack tonight because this is just like how I felt last saturday. They'll send me to therapy if they find out...
I don't WANNA go there!!!
It's BAD there!!
You know, I used to love the things that I heard in my head...
But now, I'm only plagued by whatever force that is causing these things....
I kinda wanna paint my walls with blood, but I can't. o___O
Aren't I SO special? :DDD
I KNOW you'll agree....
In Regards To Myself....
***Zan
Saturday, April 5, 2008
P-Shaaw!
Hi
I got a new laptop computer that's SO hardcore!!!!
I have named her Claire. :DDDD
I'm SO freakin' bored. No one will talk to me on AIM because I've got so much energy, and nowhere to put it. Meaning: I freak people out.
I'm actually sitting here typing this with Armor For Sleep pumping into my brain very loudly by request of my parents because they're having a private talk, like, right next to me about Gawd(Sydney) knows what. It's raining really hard, and I wanna be self-destructive, and run outside (I'm scared of water), but my parental units won't let me due to the fact that apparently, there's lightning outside. ><>
The Phone Is Ringing...
Who is it?
It's my Aunt Shell.
Whatever.
I've been trying to think of something to draw in my sketch book. I probably should finish inking my Schitzophrenic Panic picture first, though. I get off track sometimes.... The picture itself is great. It's got great perspective, but it's not my best. I was just trying to see if I had any perspective-angle skills, and I obviously do. o__O
Yesterday, I tried putting music on here, but failed miserably. It's fine though. I just didn't do it right. XDD I'll figure it out soon.
I'm going to go and talk to my wall now. He keeps asking me to have a chat with him these days, and I can't just ignore him. Last time we had a lovely conversation on what Clocks mean to us and why. It was increasingly interesting.
A Clock is Life's Despair. It's Death's essence. Clocks have an obvious relation to time, but they are not time itself. They are the faces of time, and that's why they have faces. If you could look behind a Clock fast enough, you'd catch a glimpse of time; Therefore, seeing the meaning of Life. People are always talking about the meaning of life. No one talks about the meaning of Death. I think this is why Death exists, and is shunned. If everyone was in-love with Death, then Death wouldn't be looked upon as such a bad thing. Death wouldn't exist. If Death doesn't exist, there would be no meaning of life.
I hate learning about the universe in class because it makes me feel even more insignificant then I already do. My life, My Existence means nothing. It doesn't affect the universe in any way. Nothing I could ever accomplish would affect the cosmos at all. There's nothing I could live for that's even bigger than the universe. I am insignificant.
Thank You, and Goodnight!!! :DD
In Regards to Myself....
***Zan
I got a new laptop computer that's SO hardcore!!!!
I have named her Claire. :DDDD
I'm SO freakin' bored. No one will talk to me on AIM because I've got so much energy, and nowhere to put it. Meaning: I freak people out.
I'm actually sitting here typing this with Armor For Sleep pumping into my brain very loudly by request of my parents because they're having a private talk, like, right next to me about Gawd(Sydney) knows what. It's raining really hard, and I wanna be self-destructive, and run outside (I'm scared of water), but my parental units won't let me due to the fact that apparently, there's lightning outside. ><>
The Phone Is Ringing...
Who is it?
It's my Aunt Shell.
Whatever.
I've been trying to think of something to draw in my sketch book. I probably should finish inking my Schitzophrenic Panic picture first, though. I get off track sometimes.... The picture itself is great. It's got great perspective, but it's not my best. I was just trying to see if I had any perspective-angle skills, and I obviously do. o__O
Yesterday, I tried putting music on here, but failed miserably. It's fine though. I just didn't do it right. XDD I'll figure it out soon.
I'm going to go and talk to my wall now. He keeps asking me to have a chat with him these days, and I can't just ignore him. Last time we had a lovely conversation on what Clocks mean to us and why. It was increasingly interesting.
A Clock is Life's Despair. It's Death's essence. Clocks have an obvious relation to time, but they are not time itself. They are the faces of time, and that's why they have faces. If you could look behind a Clock fast enough, you'd catch a glimpse of time; Therefore, seeing the meaning of Life. People are always talking about the meaning of life. No one talks about the meaning of Death. I think this is why Death exists, and is shunned. If everyone was in-love with Death, then Death wouldn't be looked upon as such a bad thing. Death wouldn't exist. If Death doesn't exist, there would be no meaning of life.
I hate learning about the universe in class because it makes me feel even more insignificant then I already do. My life, My Existence means nothing. It doesn't affect the universe in any way. Nothing I could ever accomplish would affect the cosmos at all. There's nothing I could live for that's even bigger than the universe. I am insignificant.
Thank You, and Goodnight!!! :DD
In Regards to Myself....
***Zan
Friday, April 4, 2008
Donnie... Darko?...
Hi
Well, twas an interesting day today.
It's the beginning of my Spring Break *Sarcastic Smile*. Oh, yeah. It'll be amazing. I'm sure...
Anyway, about my interesting day. I'm in Drama I at my school, and my teacher was generous enough to allow all of his students to sign up to see the play "Noises Off". Which means, I got to legally skip my first three classes that day. The play, itself, was FABULOUS. If anyone has actually seen the performance "Noises Off", then they'll know how amazingly funny it was. I liked Act 2 the best. XDD It was a very ingenious performance, and it made me smile. :DDD How rare.
I got quite a bit of positive thinking from that. I decided I wanted to skip 4th period with my friends, Sydney and Peyton. And This is what happened:
I asked them, "Oh, hey guys, are you gonna skip 4th? I am."
They replied, "Oh, yes! Of course! We're just going to head over to our lockers to drop some stuff off. We'll be right back."
With a smile, I told them that I'll make sure to svae a good table for them. There was an exchange of waves, and they were off.
It was only the beginning of 1st lunch (I've got 3rd lunch, but that's not relevant right now.), and I had saved a lovely table for the three of us. I got yelled at a lot by other kids. o__O I told them, "Hey, just sit down with me. I'm not going to eat you, or anything." Yet, the yelling continues. /-_-\;;
I don't know how long I waited there... I got fed up with all the shunning, so I left to go hunt for my two friends. Someone I know told me that they were in the library, so I went there. There was no one. I checked over by where their lockers are. Still no one.
YES, I GOT DITCHED.
SERIOUSLY. Is there something WRONG with me? I was really hurt, and I went to class, hiding behind the excuse that I was confused, and didn't know what time it was. I wasn't counted absent because it worked. XDD I passed notes with my good friend, MaryLynn, and told all about what happened. She said that I should tell them my true feelings when we go to lunch.
3rd Lunch came around, and I totally went OFF on them. The funny thing was, they DIDN'T CARE. They just SHRUGGED ME OFF and ACTED LIKE I WASN'T EVEN THERE. THAT'S what pissed me off the most... -___- I was SO mad all day...
When I got howm, I took a shower because I had my hair up in these adorable pig-tails which make me look like a little anime girl, and they started to give me a headache. I blow-dried my hair, ate some ice cream I spontaneously found in the freezer, then passed out on the couch.
It. Was. Awesome.
After that, I get this call. It's from Sydney. ><
Everyone wants to hang out tomorrow, but I bet you a million dollars that they'll screw me over again. XDD (Last weekend, Peyton, Sydney, Me, and April made this stop-motion movie, and I edited most of it, but we still have to do they audio, and they said that they'd help me out with it. They said they'd help me out with editing too, but do you see how that turned out? [I stayed up until 1:30 AM editing it for them, while they hanged out in my room.-__-])
Yep. This Spring Break will be amazing. I hope people call me tonight because I probably won't sleep again. ><
In Regards To Myself....
***Zan
Well, twas an interesting day today.
It's the beginning of my Spring Break *Sarcastic Smile*. Oh, yeah. It'll be amazing. I'm sure...
Anyway, about my interesting day. I'm in Drama I at my school, and my teacher was generous enough to allow all of his students to sign up to see the play "Noises Off". Which means, I got to legally skip my first three classes that day. The play, itself, was FABULOUS. If anyone has actually seen the performance "Noises Off", then they'll know how amazingly funny it was. I liked Act 2 the best. XDD It was a very ingenious performance, and it made me smile. :DDD How rare.
I got quite a bit of positive thinking from that. I decided I wanted to skip 4th period with my friends, Sydney and Peyton. And This is what happened:
I asked them, "Oh, hey guys, are you gonna skip 4th? I am."
They replied, "Oh, yes! Of course! We're just going to head over to our lockers to drop some stuff off. We'll be right back."
With a smile, I told them that I'll make sure to svae a good table for them. There was an exchange of waves, and they were off.
It was only the beginning of 1st lunch (I've got 3rd lunch, but that's not relevant right now.), and I had saved a lovely table for the three of us. I got yelled at a lot by other kids. o__O I told them, "Hey, just sit down with me. I'm not going to eat you, or anything." Yet, the yelling continues. /-_-\;;
I don't know how long I waited there... I got fed up with all the shunning, so I left to go hunt for my two friends. Someone I know told me that they were in the library, so I went there. There was no one. I checked over by where their lockers are. Still no one.
YES, I GOT DITCHED.
SERIOUSLY. Is there something WRONG with me? I was really hurt, and I went to class, hiding behind the excuse that I was confused, and didn't know what time it was. I wasn't counted absent because it worked. XDD I passed notes with my good friend, MaryLynn, and told all about what happened. She said that I should tell them my true feelings when we go to lunch.
3rd Lunch came around, and I totally went OFF on them. The funny thing was, they DIDN'T CARE. They just SHRUGGED ME OFF and ACTED LIKE I WASN'T EVEN THERE. THAT'S what pissed me off the most... -___- I was SO mad all day...
When I got howm, I took a shower because I had my hair up in these adorable pig-tails which make me look like a little anime girl, and they started to give me a headache. I blow-dried my hair, ate some ice cream I spontaneously found in the freezer, then passed out on the couch.
It. Was. Awesome.
After that, I get this call. It's from Sydney. ><
Everyone wants to hang out tomorrow, but I bet you a million dollars that they'll screw me over again. XDD (Last weekend, Peyton, Sydney, Me, and April made this stop-motion movie, and I edited most of it, but we still have to do they audio, and they said that they'd help me out with it. They said they'd help me out with editing too, but do you see how that turned out? [I stayed up until 1:30 AM editing it for them, while they hanged out in my room.-__-])
Yep. This Spring Break will be amazing. I hope people call me tonight because I probably won't sleep again. ><
In Regards To Myself....
***Zan
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
A Mind For The Lost And Lonely
Hi
I Crave Relation
For This Situation
Life's never hit me so hard before
Images of you slamming your front door
~*~Now I finally see
A Mind For The Lost And Lonely
Spread Out Before Me
And if you Forget this
Something that you Miss
All That You Say
Please Just Stay With Me
I was Wrong when I said I was Alone
All those times I Cried on the phone
These stitches so Tightly Sewn
Are Ripped Apart by Shards of Bone
~*~Now I finally see
A Mind For The Lost And Lonely
Spread Out Before Me
And if you Forget this
Something that you Miss
All That You Say
Please Just Stay With Me
Please Just Stay With Me (x3)
We can't help seeing Ghosts
I've seen Phantoms Swim
In Your Eyes...
I knew I Should've Made The Most
Spectors Crawl through Thornbush Limbs
And I'll give you my Faithful Goodbyes...
I've got Dreams in my Veins
Restraints kept making me Insane
I'm Bleeding all the Pain out now
I Hope, In Your Heart, I'll Remain...
~*~Now I finally see
A Mind For The Lost And Lonely
Spread Out Before Me
And if you Forget this
Something that you Miss
All That You Say
Please Just Stay With Me
Please Just Stay With Me....
***Zan
I Crave Relation
For This Situation
Life's never hit me so hard before
Images of you slamming your front door
~*~Now I finally see
A Mind For The Lost And Lonely
Spread Out Before Me
And if you Forget this
Something that you Miss
All That You Say
Please Just Stay With Me
I was Wrong when I said I was Alone
All those times I Cried on the phone
These stitches so Tightly Sewn
Are Ripped Apart by Shards of Bone
~*~Now I finally see
A Mind For The Lost And Lonely
Spread Out Before Me
And if you Forget this
Something that you Miss
All That You Say
Please Just Stay With Me
Please Just Stay With Me (x3)
We can't help seeing Ghosts
I've seen Phantoms Swim
In Your Eyes...
I knew I Should've Made The Most
Spectors Crawl through Thornbush Limbs
And I'll give you my Faithful Goodbyes...
I've got Dreams in my Veins
Restraints kept making me Insane
I'm Bleeding all the Pain out now
I Hope, In Your Heart, I'll Remain...
~*~Now I finally see
A Mind For The Lost And Lonely
Spread Out Before Me
And if you Forget this
Something that you Miss
All That You Say
Please Just Stay With Me
Please Just Stay With Me....
***Zan
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