Locked Inside A Shard...

Hi

I know i haven't been on in three days. I bet that last post got you (The non-existant people who read this)really scared and worried.

No, I didn't kill myself.

...Yet...

SERIOUSLY. SO much stuff had happened in such a small time slot. (Yes, I'm talking about the three days I haven't been on here... ><)

Horror #1: I'm having another schitzo-wave. (That's what I call it.) It's a point in time that my schitzophrenia is heightened. I hear things more. I interact with the ghosts inside the deepest depths of my mind. I don't usually se them so often, but during a schitzo-wave, I do. I'm seeing ghosts everywhere. Something simple can break me down. Sometimes, I don't even know what I'm saying.... This hasn't happened since the end of last summer, so It's hard to remember how I coped.

Horror #2: When I was 11, I started having dreams about my family... My family being ripped apart... Well, guess what? The forces decided to kick me while I'm down... EVERYTHING I DREAMT ABOUT WAS TRUE. This isn't the first time this has happened, either. My dad is moving out... I know that doesn't sound bad because I hate my dad, but it's SO much more complicated than you can imagine. I'm gonna have to go over there to spend quality time with my dad or else he's gonna go crazy on my mom... I'm suffering with choices... It's making me confused.

Horror #3: Fuckin' Bryan asked me out, and I really don't like him, but I thought he was joking, and I said yes. ><>

Horror #4: All of my friends are insensitive bitches who treat me like shit when people of importance or authority aren't around... ><

Horror #5: High School Musical 3 is coming out soon. JESUS CHRIST! CAN DISNEY CHANNEL SINK ANY LOWER? IT THOUGH HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 WAS BAD, BUT THIS IS INSANE!!! WHY COULDN'T THEY HAVE JUST LEFT IT AS A ONE MOVIE DEAL? THEY'RE RUINING IT!! I'M REALLY FUCKING TIRED OF SEEING THE CHEAP, SHITTY MERCHANIDISE THEY SELL FOR A MEDIOCRE MOVIE!! JUST LOOK AT THE ACTORS! THEY'RE UNMOVTIVATED! YOU CAN TELL THAT THEY WANNA GO HOME, AND WATCH SOMETHING! I SWEAR! THIS IS JUST THE HARRY POTTER DEAL! STOP RUINING PEOPLES' LIVES, DISNEY!!!

Now that I've got THAT out of my system

THANK YOU, AND GOODNIGHT!!

In Regards To Myself....

***Zan